Saturday, January 20, 2024

The Grey Cat Who Consoled Me at the Crematorium

That my late brother loved cats all his adult life isn't lost on me when I befriended a grey cat I found at the Uncle John's at the back of the St. Peter's crematorium in QC, days into the new year. It takes at least two hours before the cremation is completed so instead of staying in the waiting room, I spent time feeding and petting "Jimboy," the name I gave to the grey tomcat. I wasn't expecting to meet a cat on this day so I wasn't able to bring any kibble with me.

I consider myself part-humanist, part-agnostic, but I would like to think there's a mystical connection to all these. Having seen a lot of supernatural things, I can't help but think of the spiritual side of things, but not what the conventional thinking has espoused. I digress.

It's a sad way to end the old year and welcome the new one but it has happened. I'm not close to my late brother, having been bullied out of the house when we were young, but he is still my sibling. No sense in bringing up the past, especially at the twilight of his life.

I also keep thinking back to the last really long conversation we had, about a year ago, about the idea of reincarnation. Having been raised Catholic, it's obvious that we both had other ideas on what we were indoctrinated with. I remember what he said about a single life cycle being impossible since it's not feasible to learn everything in one lifetime. It's like he's read my mind.

I've been reading and rereading books on NDE and past-life regression for years now, particularly Dr. Brian Weiss's works and I'd like to think I myself have been seeing flashes of my old lives. I've also seen mystical things in my life as well as supernatural encounters so I think as far as personal belief is concerned, I'm in the middle between atheism and mysticism.

It's been two weeks and it's taken me a bit of time to write this. My late brother left four cats in his care but sadly, his favorite also passed a few days after his transition. I hope to be able to rehome them. Had I been given by the Universe the resources, I would've adopted them outright. Oh well, the Universe, admittedly, hasn't been kind to me the past years, especially the last two. Again, I digress.

Here's to my late brother whom I wish I've come to know better in this lifetime. Maybe, in the next one, we will meet again.


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